disclosure of death

Disclosure of the feelings,

That of a personal mayhem,

Was hard, was so tough,

Was always hard to bluff,

When I had to face reality,

Realized I dwell in disguise

My mind panicked and sought death

Roaring from inside, stayed calm in fright

Covered my pain in the darkness of demise

And my tears in those silent woes

“Kill them all, to hell with suffering”

I wished for life’s extinction

And I still am, in sheer frustration.

I take a decision, a hell of a transition

From heights of sane, it’s been,

Memoirs my worth, are worth selling,

The depth I take, is worth reading,

For you wouldn’t, want my place,

A state of despair, grudge on par,

My strength in vain, hope in pain,

All I am is a self-disdain!

Do you?

It appeared like a hardened feeling,

A stone of a heart, and painful dwelling,

A greeting of no warmth,

Like an intruder on her land,

I lived in, what was my sin?

I made no more choice, did you hear my voice?

It’s you, who done this to me,

Acting like you don’t own this property,

Told my instincts, and my rights,

Are not yours, liar, how could you be?

Calm and blamed my feelings,

When we walked through the lobby!

A thought would still glimmer,

On back of my mind however,

That you don’t really hate me,

But the question always remains,

Do you love me?

Just another day!

Lonely the mind has been

So am I, lost in a deeper thought

Searching for answers,

For the questions questioning clarity,

So close I was to know

That it was all my Insanity

It was hard for me to know

Am living in a Bedlam like unity

Never I gave up, swallowed the hiccup,

The search went on

And so gone my changing mind

And the tormented Wisdom

I laid and knuckled down

On what never existed

All of a Sudden,

It appeared like dawn,

I woke up, my eyes say,

The confusion’s still not gone away,

At Office, It’s just another day

Satyam Fiasco - what's it?

Guys, it's been long time (huh! I keep saying this) since i wrote anything. No emotions hard enough to push the lines out of my complicated brain, I experienced. How ever, I involved in lots of gossip(for some, hard known facts :P) these days. It's all about SATYAM everywhere. I will take you through a hard core analysis :P of what the issue is all about, where it started and how it's all inflated. (aint it looked like sarcasm?)

My younger brother was asking me, "what happened to the well-known Satyam? what are these people talking about?". I was little surprised as the question was pointed to possibly a wrong person, who could exaggerate, manipulate and steer the issue to his own view point that may possibly turn out to be wrong. I felt somehow that was a right opportunity to throw some GYAAN. :P

"A guy has a chota kirana shop, HE invested a petty some of 10000 bucks(figure not calculate ;)) to start it. He found many customers, thanks to the demand, He was one of few Vendors(technical terms eh?) who sold groceries in that area. The demand grew and the profits grew. The other Vendors or the fresh aspirants( Tom,dick and harry) would stay no calm, they will obviously want to start one such. But still, this guy has an edge. He wanted to start two more shops and increase the chain. HE had no money to do that, it's then he borrowed money from different sources. HE started two more shops, the count came to three shops in total (I was good in mathematics since my childhood). Tom, Dick and Harry were tough contenders, they wanted and eventually eaten away profits from the BAAP (you know who I am referring to right? ok, its the Kirana shop vaala).

The BAAP couldn't sleep if He was not one among the God Fathers of the Dandaa. HE wanted a chain of Kirana Stores. The profits however were moderated by uski Beep!!!!!! Tom , Dick and Harry. HE desperately wanted to create a bubble( I will come to what's this later). HE announced huge profits for his KIRANA dandaa aur sab logon ko Daawat diya. He promised bunch of apples if invested few cents. KIRANA waala aur bunch of apples? don worry I will come to it later"

I started this story, and my younger brother who patiently listened to that till then, sighed and with an irritated expression, cursed "Ab Satyam ko chod, chal khana kaayenge"(Text morphed :P)

does the story I told my brother make any sense? The inflated results, claimed cash reserves, non existent liquidity and all the other Jargons will sure won't hit the chord for my brother. All HE was interested about was how Ramalinga Raju cheated millions. I wasn't sure what he really did, but am sure that it did bring about a negative impression on the country. I chose to continue the story I instantly created and write it down in my blog.


..To be contd!!

Friends, and damn circumstances!

Long Since I ve written, almost 7 months ans so I thought I should come back with something small atleast. But, it's turned out to be an interesting one cos I chose to write on people I love most.


"Just how the fog doesn't shiver in the cold,
and the water by the stones, can't be hold.
We, the friends are always told,
By the Circumstances to be bold.

Some of us choose our own way,
The choice may be here not to stay,
But those memories never fade away,
Let's all make Hay,
Those memories never fade away"